Turn my world around
Bring the whole thing down
I should get back to work.
But why bother? It doesn’t matter.
It doesn’t matter how hard I work. It doesn’t matter how much money I make. It doesn’t make a difference.
How anyone manages to maintain a family in this country on less than 100k mystifies me. And the fact that a lot of people seem to do it and have money left over for big screen TVs and SUVs exasperates me.
Don’t even bring up budgeting, it’s been done to death on this journal.
I want to give up. I’m tired of waiting for things to get better.
A lot of people have offered me a place to stay if I want to take a break, and I appreciate that. But I don’t want to take a break. I don’t want to be thinking about the shitty situation I have to return to. I want to give up.
Tell me it’s all worthwhile. Tell me in a way that makes me believe you.