all of these efforts at control — planning and scheduling and documenting and legally protecting every minute of your life and putting your body through a daily obstacle course — are aimed at a way for your mind and heart to finally find rest and peace.The irony, of course, is that this quest for ETERNAL LIFE is actually a quest for DEATH: No more tormenting, neurotic thoughts, no uncertainty, no unknowns, no awkwardness, no misunderstandings, no sickness, no fear, no distrust, no sadness, no decline, no messiness, no conflicts, no bewilderment.