God I feel like a broken record, but I’m just miserable today. Don’t
want to anything other than maybe write code. Don’t even want to do
Beer & Badminton. Every hour of every day: the weight. the weight, the
many people that bear up so much more effectively than I do. What gene was I born without that I don’t enjoy this? I guess it’s not
so unusual. I hear Lincoln could barely drag himself out of bed a lot
of the time. What drove that man to be what he was? Just a few years. Just a few years I have to be better than good. Just
a few more steps, a few more milestones, and I can relax. I hope it’s true, because it’s all I have.