I think I’m hurting. Sometimes it’s hard to tell.
Maybe they are right. I will never let go. I will never truly connect. I will never really understand what it is to love someone. I will simply pantomime what others do, and hope no one sees through my cover.
I know I have been slacking on my updates. What’s to say… Went to the beach with rebeckahrae, her brother, and asherhyder on Friday. Contrary to predictions, it was cold, foggy, and rainy. I loved it – the Yellow Face did not torment me, and we walked up and down the beach and boardwalk. It was great to spend time with a couple of my friends that I don’t see with a frequency commensurate with how much I care for them. Went to protea‘s commissioning on Saturday. You go, girl! Had a blast hiking and swimming with shadowandlight and co. Sunday, followed by dancing and mingling at Kommencement. Very much enjoyed conversation with ratspy. It’s challenging and gratifying to talk with someone who clearly gives every statement and reply careful thought and isn’t afraid to heartily disagree, or to call bullshit when appropriate.
(Note: all of the above activities included avivahg, it just would’ve been redundant to note that each time)
And now I think I’m hurting. But not terribly. And that’s all I’ll say about that.