I realized last night that I am still partially conditioned to feel uncomfortable and at fault when conversation peters out in a social context. I still feel compelled to offer up lame attempts at conversation-starters to fill the empty air, so as not to bore my companion(s). I myself have never had trouble with being quiet in the company of friends; but I schooled myself to consider such behaviour to be unnacceptably antisocial. These remnants of an attempt to cover up my undersocialized youth with a crude simulation of what “social people” appear to do rarely serves any useful purpose. I think it’s time I mindfully put an end to the habit. There is no reason that two people can’t share a comfortable, companionable silence. I need to learn to be confident speaking only when I genuinely have something to say.